Going down the Fuwa road

[Nosebleed]

3000 posts. That is a lot, I shouldn't really be proud of posting so much and start worrying about my life but I'll procrastinate for a while longer. I've been meaning to write something like this back in my 1000th and 2000th post but I literally just forgot about it, guess it wasn't as important as back then as it is now. (Though someone else actually made a thread for my 1000th post).

 

I feel like I've come to a point where I really wanted to write something like this so even if there weren't 3000 posts I'd still eventually write it. I hope you care enough to stick through this text, though it's not really a requirement but I appreciate your effort. 

 

I wanted to write a bit about my life and Fuwanovel, just to give you some form of context, and also because I really like this community and feel like some people might not know me that well so this will probably give you a better prespective on who I am (or at least what I did).

 

You all know me here as Nosebleed, I'd still like it to keep it that way despite not really having any complexes with giving my name away but I feel like this username is a separate identity for me and to give away my real name would somewhat shatter that (maybe?), but I'll give you a hint, my real first name has two R's in it, hope that's something. I am 18 years old and live in Portugal in a rather small town in the middle of nowhere, despite it being small and quiet it's still a nice place to live in and I have no real issues with it aside from slow internet speed. I still live with my parents as well as my younger sister as pretty much a shut-in, I rarely go out unless I am forced to and I try to live my life with as less effort as possible.

 

Last year I graduated highschool, however due to failing my math exam I was not eligible to enter college and thus I've been staying home since then. When I graduated I still was unsure about what I wanted to pursue as my career, I got into highschool not really having any "dream job". All I knew is that I liked learning languages and I liked biology a lot during middle school (English being my strongest subject and biology being my 2nd strongest). I wanted to pursue a language course in highschool and learn new things but since I wasn't sure of what I'd do after with that course I decided to enter a science course due to it having more career path choices as well as an english subject in it.

 

I liked the course and got decent grades, didn't fail any subject in particular (though some had pretty bad grades but not bad enough I'd fail), however even by the end of my senior year I still did not know what to do for a career, all I knew is that it could be something related to biology but I never exactly felt connected to any of the job types I was presented and thus I ended up finishing highschool and still not knowing what to do with my life.

 

Then came my math exam (along other exams), I knew I needed this exam to enter any college regardless of my choice since any biology related college course requires the math exam. However I ended up failing the exam, I was 10 points short from the minimum required and thus couldn't apply for college.

 

After that I was obviously really dejected and my parents weren't really proud of me but since I still didn't know what to do with my life I just told them I'd try again next year and so that's what I set myself up for, I started taking supplementary math classes to repeat my final exam, however midway through them I didn't feel any passion,  I started having thoughts like "Can I really do it?" and "What's the point if it's not something i seriously want?" and I started slacking off math classes, my life had pretty must lost direction and I was just going along with the flow of things without really having any opinion of my own on stuff. 

 

Amidst this messy situation in my life is when I first joined Fuwanovel. Now how did I get here.

I started getting into anime in 2012, I was browsing my TV and found some anime channels and being a 16 year old hormonal teenager, as soon as I discovered there was a genre called ecchi and tried it out, it was like the best thing in the world. It started with Highschool DxD, but then obviously I started getting into other anime and searching for stuff on my own and now my tastes have changed a lot, despite still liking ecchi I enjoy a whole plethora of other genres.

 

In 2013 I started watching Little Busters the anime (while it was only about 14 eps in), I actually really enjoyed the characters in it but was rather disappointed at the lack of romance, that's when I discovered it was an adaptation of a visual novel.

 

At the time I wasn't really sure what that was but I read on wikipedia about it and found out  in this visual novel you could actually get romantically involved with one of the main heroines and this of course got me really thrilled since I loved Kud a lot back then (and still do though back at that time I called her my waifu even. Don't hate me Flutterz pl0x) and so I got myself a copy of Little Busters EX with the patch (thinking i'd get some H-scenes though later I found out there wasn't really any H-content which kind of saddened me but I kept going nonetheless) and I absolutely loved it. I played it hours and hours straight until I got to the very end and I even cried.

 

I had never thought a visual novel could be such an amazing thing. After that I found out about Katawa Shoujo while browsing the enlightening lands of 4chan and also tried it and loved it as well. I wanted to try more of these amazing romances that made my heart ache but at the same time gave me a thrilling experience.

 

Then I found out about Hoshizora no Memoria and I discovered this site. I downloaded Hoshimemo from here and played it and loved it just as much as LB, I started using this site often and then at one point I wanted recommendations and didn't really know where to go to ask for this type of stuff and where to discuss visual novels, that's when I joined the forums back in September last year.

I felt welcomed here and I felt like I could meet a lot of great people and have a great time discussing a bunch of stuff I love. Waking up and coming online here was something I started doing regularly, it put a smile on my face every time I talked to users here. I felt appreciated and I felt like I existed for some purpose.

 

As you can tell I started posting a lot and very often.. very very often. It didn't take long until I became the top poster on fuwa, surpassing boomer, around 3-4 months in. It was also back in December that one of the major things here for me happened. I was messaged and asked to join VNAer as an author.

This was for me one of the biggest milestones at the time, I never would have thought someone would actually see me as capable of helping on one of the things in the front page. I obviously accepted at the time and I still am an author in the blog, though not as active, but it's something I really do like to help with.

At the same time I was also made admin in our official Facebook page which I still work on along with batman and ryou and it's something I'm very thankful to be put in charge of. And as if this wasn't enough, in late January this year, Tay messages me saying I've been selected as member of the month. I couldn't even believe my eyes. Although this feature has been gone for a while and only 3 people were in it, I am extremly grateful to have been selected as member of the month and given such a high praise for being who I am here.

 

But one of the biggest milestones was when in early March Steve dropped this PM in my inbox asking me to be part of the fuwa staff as a moderator. I literally jumped off my chair at that moment, trying to really check if this was happening, and it sure was. Since then I've been part of the fuwa staff and I'm really grateful that they accepted me as such and I try my best every single day to help around fuwa in every way I can.

 

In just about 6 months my role here grew from a complete stranger to being part of the staff. When I put things into prespective like that it really makes me realis these last 6 months weren't just a waste of time, it was and still is worth every bit of time I put into the fuwa community and site and I really do want to continue here being as active as possible and helping as much as possible.

 

So this brings me to the fundamental point of this post, how do my real life situation and my fuwanovel life collide. Well that's because, early this year when I was feeling hopeless and didn't know what to do with my career, meru started this thread about Japan and how she managed to go to college to pursue Japanese and then ended up moving to Japan. This thread really sparked something inside me, as I kept reading it I felt like it was something I could really relate with and it could be something I will like if I tried.

 

So around March I decided to search around the colleges here and found out there does indeed exist a course here in one of the colleges that teaches Japanese alongside other subjects like Japanese culture, history, asian economy, etc. Due to my love of languages and my love for anime and the japanese culture I really did feel like this is something I could aim for and like, I had never felt this way about a career path before and for the first time in my life i said "This is what I want to do for a living".

 

I talked to my parents about it and they were rather accepting though when I told them I wanted to drop math entirely they were somewhat dubious but they still let me do what I wanted to do in this regard. And so I decided to drop math supplementary classes and focus on trying to learn geography since that's the required entrance exam for college. However learning a subject when you never had it in your life is pretty difficult and so things are looking grim this year since the exam is coming up in June so there's a high chance I won't pass. That and since I'm from a science course and not a language course, my average is rather low when compared to language course students so I need to really make up for my poorer grades with the exam.

 

And this is where my life is at now. I'm trying to pursue Japanese in college and for that I need to pass this one exam with a rather high mark in order to enter. And all this would not be possible without Fuwanovel. But it's not only because Fuwanovel gave me a path that I want to follow it, I want to follow it also because I want to give back to Fuwanovel everything the community gave to me. And wether or not I manage to enter college this year I won't regret my decisions and I'll keep trying harder next year!

 

Life direciton and meaning were things I did not have some months ago, but because of this community and the people here I was able to stand back up and find something I want to do, a place where  I feel like I belong, and a reason to wake up every morning with a smile and not a frown. 

 

And it's because of all this that this is mostly a thank you post. Thank you Fuwanovel community for giving me such a wonderful opportunity and making me feel like my existence matters here. Thank you for being as helpful as possible no matter what the situation. Thank you for being who you are and always stay like that, because this is what makes Fuwanovel the best community on the internet and one I want to be part of for as long as possible.

 

I know this is just one single post and I might not be the best at writing stuff like this but I tried my best.

I hope you can continue putting up with me for many months and years to come.

 

So yeah, I guess.. T-thank you.

 

 

And now for some specific people I wanted to mention before finishing this.

 

First paragraph and one I promised I'd write is obviously for Kaguya, not only did she welcome me in her faction in its first stage but now for being like my other half and the person who gets most of my attention and love, even above Shinobu. She's also someone I look up to and I hope one day we can dominate the world together <3

 

I  also want to dedicate one paragraph to KNIGHT, formerly known as Kaguya Faction, for being the first group of people to recruit me. Because of this group, even if the forums wasn't as active I knew that in this group PM even the most random of topics could generate a conversation (and it certainly did..) and obviously I am very proud for being a member and one day we shall eventually take over fuwa, and then the world, it's only a matter of time.

 

Another paragraph is for the osu thread, in particular the users in it, because now osu is pretty much the only video game I play and have a ton of fun playing and because of the people in it I have someone to multi with which is always fun when I am completely bored.

 

Also related to the previous one is Maefdomn who's pretty much my choice player when it comes to playing multi on osu. He's also fun to pester on Skype. And we have many great moments together as well.

 

There's also Down who's someone I always look for when I need new anime, Down's recommendations rarely let me down so thank you for everything!

 

I'd like to thank Steve for thinking I'm worthy enough of being part of the staff as well as the rest of the staff for accepting me. I'll do my best to become the Eiffel Tower!

 

And although she's not active now I wanted to thank Mayumi for giving me the first ever major role on fuwa which meant and still does mean a lot to me.

 

 

If you're not mentioned in these paragraphs it doesn't mean I don't like you or appreciate you it's just that I don't really have anything in specific I want to mention (or can remember now), but if I really did forget someone important do comment about it because I'm kind of tired from writing all this. 

 

And that is all, thank you if you read everything here and if you gave up halfway it's still okay, I appreciate the effort, and stay awesome!

 

にこにこにい

[Lewycool]

You forgot about your love for Yuri

 

Nevertheless, great post.

 

Gald you enjoy it here and good look on that test. Past the damn geography test. YOU CAN DO IT!

[Nagisa_Fawkes]

So... beatiful...   

Congratulations Nosebleed on your 3000th post, I'm relatively new here as well, I felt welcomed by all of Fuwa, so I can relate to you, even though I used to think friendship was stupid... this forums really changed my mind. I hope I can be on your spot someday really, but to write so many lines, I still have a long way of memory making on Fuwa to write such a touching story. It feels like you're going away since you wrote so much, but don't you run away mister , stay around, and I hope to see the day you reach 10000th .

[OriginalRen]

Nosebleed,

 

I am not sure why I felt like posting in this thread, but life stories have a place in my heart that mean a lot to me even when I barely know the person. The amount of effort you seem to have put into something you enjoy is inspiring to many people in this community and will continue to be that way for some time. Continue pursuing what you believe in and remember that you have a lot of support from many people, even if we just happen to be faces behind the internet halfway around the world. Remember that life sucks, but it is those happy moments in life that make everyday worth moving forward.

 

It has been a true honor to meet you and been a pleasure talking to you in the times we have. I may not know you as well as a lot of others on this website, but you are a integral part of the Fuwa community that helps make it tick and for what you have done for me I thank you. Don't worry, I know this sounds like a long awaited goodbye, but I think of it as a new beginning. Best of luck in everything you pursue in life and remember that if you ever need anything, I, as well as many others, are just a click away.

 

Godspeed friend.

[Chocolat]

Congratulations! I read the whole text too, and I hope that I could post as many posts as you one day!

[Yukiru]

Good luck in whatever you may try Nosebleed. Just remember, surpass the impossible and kick off with momentum.

[Flutterz]

You misspelled "world" in the paragraph about Kaguya.

[Yukiru]

You misspelled "world" in the paragraph about Kaguya.

I know conquering the world is a bit off the mark, but "Sekai" can mean both world and universe, it's just a pun.

[Nosebleed]

You misspelled "world" in the paragraph about Kaguya.

Fingers were just tired

 

I really appreciate everyone's encouragement words, it's because of that I even wrote this in the first place.

[Zakamutt]

I'm not good at answering these kinds of posts.

 

Good luck on your exam.

 

<3

[madvanced]

Well I just threaded here, and I don't really know if I should just reply like this on this topic when I only joined yesterday. But the reason I am doing so is because what you wrote seemed a lot like what's my life right now. I'm 20 years old and, funny enough, I'm also from Portugal, though I live near to the city, but unlike you I don't really like where I'm from. I also went with the science course through my high school just because it had a lot of job opportunities, however I never had any dream job nor any interest for any particular field of study, the only thing I ever showed any interest in was in wanting to learn the japanese language, but nothing else. When I graduated, I didn't really know what to do. Because I didn't have any other choice but to apply to a college since I had nothing to do. I ended up attending a telecommunications engineering major, but since I had no interest in it I ended up failing it, becoming a college drop-out, I was even supposed to finish my 2nd year this June and I didn't even get my 1st semester done, so you can see how much I didn't care about it. After that I tried to see what was out there other than what I had to forcibly chose as a college career, and I ended up discovering the very same major you discovered, though I'm still deciding whether I really should change major to that one or not, since my only goal in life is to learn Japanese and go to Japan, preferably to a small town, since I believe they have a better atmosphere to them than the city, I guess. I was always a shut in since I was kid, so I never really had anything to do, so I would spend my whole days in my computer. When I was 13 I discovered animes in a site called Crunchyroll, after that it was just a matter of time for me to discover mangas and read them, and then about 1-1,5 years ago, I discovered VN's. And after a while of wanting to talk to people, and on top of that people that also played VN's, I decided to join Fuwa since it was where I downloaded most of the VN's I played until now, although I only finished about 7 VN's.

 

Now for some reason I see that I started rambling a bit too much about myself, and hijacked the topic, for that I'm sorry, but, like I said before, it felt awfully similar to me in some points, so my emotions got the better of me. Anyway, even if I'm a complete noob here in Fuwa I guess I can still congratulate you for your 3000th post, although it may not mean much coming from me.

[Hanako]

Tanjoubi omedeto !!!

That's not it

3000 post omedeto

As you can tell I started posting a lot and very often.. very very often.

Now you say it it's true it's feel a little weird when you read a topic with 50 reply at least without ANY comment from you x)

 

Good luck for your exam. And now you find the futur you want do whatever you can to achieve it

Hope you'll stay here FOR-E-VER wahahahhah !!!

And finely hole we'll get along

bonus : here have some Shinobu (I've so much image of her I almosts can make a folder juste for her é_è)

[Nagisa_Fawkes]

Dandjobi omedeto !!!

That's "tanjoubi" my friend

[Hanako]

That's "tanjoubi" my friend

Exactely what I've written

[Flutterz]

Fingers were just tired

 

I really appreciate everyone's encouragement words, it's because of that I even wrote this in the first place.

Well then, now that that little typo is out of the way and I am in front of my computer instead of my tablet, I can write something a bit longer and a bit more on-topic. Hopefully my post made you realize that I did indeed read the whole thing. Oh, and you also misspelled "direction" 3 paragraphs above the picture.

 

Congrats on the 3000 posts, good job with the stuff you do on Fuwa, and good luck with your geography exam, it sounds like you're going to need it.

 

And since it's the only useful(?) thing I do on Fuwa, have some moe:

[FruitsPunchSamurai]

Goodluck on your exams, don't know how they are over there in Portugal but you should be fine this time as long as long as you studied a lot. Remember pursue something that you like and not something that isn't making you satisfied. I was lazy in highschool but on exams I just went crazy and got the highest I could which allowed an easy entrance to university.

Edit, oh yeah I guess I should congratulate you on your 3000th post? CONGRATULATIONS

[Monmon]

Good luck!!

Enjoy the course you picked,cuz enjoyment is one of the most important things.

I'll sing a song to uplift your soul

[monkeysrumble]

Probably like a lot of other people I'm not very good at answering these types of posts. However when I look at the effort you put into making this post I feel like just saying "Congratulations and good luck" feels kind of empty even though it may be smarter just to say it and leave it at that. When I decided to join fuwa you were the person who stood out the most out of everyone on the forums, my first impression of you was that you just seemed like a guy who just liked helping people out, whether it was giving a recommendation, an opinion or just keeping order on the threads. You're also pretty good at contributing to discussions and keeping it going which is pretty damn important on a forum. This is my impression of you and I don't really know you that well but I feel that I can stick by this. I hope to see you around some more and that you will continue to be part of this community and to be an essential part of what keeps it going. And though I'm just some nobody on the internet if you ever need someone to talk to I'm around to listen to anything, if I can help you or anyone else it would be my honor.

 

Congratulations on 3000 posts and on your achievements in the fuwa community. Good luck on your studies and kick that exams sorry ass. Thank you for all that you have done for this community.

 

P.S I have no idea why I read the tags. 

[Kaguya]

You're doing a great job- I think you counted as a huge boost to the staff, nii-chan.

You're kind, you work hard, you're very helpful (again, thanks for the sig), you're also modest and cute- Let's keep working to take over the world make fuwa a better place!

[Hanako]

And Kakuya 1600 post own to your topip for your 3000 post. You must be happy lucky guy ;p

[shcboomer]

Nice to learn more about you.

[solidbatman]

I remember the good old days when I had the highest rep and top 2 post count. Then you came along >.>

Forever my rival. 

[shcboomer]

I remember the good old days when I had the highest rep and top 2 post count. Then you came along >.>

Forever my rival. 

That day shall be remembered bats.

[Qwertymann]

Sorry if my tired words aren't so eloquent, but I felt compelled to post.

 

I like stories like this. I'm very fond of them. From walking in a surrounding darkness to finding a raison d'etre (I probably mispelled/misused some accents on that) - it's a wonderful symbol of the human spirit. It's also something we can rarely do on our own. Misdirection in life can always be corrected, and it makes me happy - even though I don't know you - that you pursue your dreams as such.

 

No matter what, don't give up. Even if you fail this time around, there's always a next time. Keep on trying 'til you succeed. If you don't try at all there's no opportunity for failure to learn. There's no opportunity for success to become happy. Well, I probably don't need to tell you that.

 

Pursuing dreams is like playing a game on an unlockable impossible difficulty (forgive my nerdy reference), but then you achieve the moment you succeed and all is right in the world.

 

One day, I hope to be like you and find my way through the dark tunnel of life. 'til then, keep your rivals in check.

[Katatsumuri]

Congratz on the 3000 posts Nosebleed... And hope that everything goes well with your goal, and... heck, why am I so bad writing these kind of posts..? Just... good luck I suppose.

And despite us only having joined less than a week apart from eachother, I consider you to be sort of my senpai... b-but it's not as if I look up to you or anything... o-okay?

 

Anyways, once again, hope that everything will go well for you, and... may the loli be with you.

 

And I guess that this means that there is only one person truly deserving to be Fuwas nr 1 spammer poster...