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    Fuwanovel Confessions

    in The Coliseum of Chatter

    Posted

    Run to Nnarnia, Flutterz! Hopefully you won't fall asleep halfway.

    My drama senses haven't been tangling any where for the last month, I need drama or I will die gdi.

    There's a cockatrice thread somewhere on the forums if you want to.

    Well I know but sadly I am kinda too busy these days but once I will become a little bit more free, I will play MTG!

    ONE DAY!

    Fuwanovel Confessions

    in The Coliseum of Chatter

    Posted

    And after I wrote that previous post, I went to sleep and had a really sweet dream about my crush.

    Life is sad

    I cried ;-;

    Then I went on to resume my daily routine. Because there are more important things I have to take care of. A man gotta do what a man gotta do.

    Confession: I wanna be the very best like no one ever was~

    Tfw Thread

    in The Coliseum of Chatter

    Posted

    tfw you start trying to translate a book to English and give up after 3 days

    tfw you give up self-education of Japanese in 2 days

    tfw you still haven't given up on playing the electric guitar but you lack ambition and talent and any remnant of skill despite having played for almost one and a half years and continue to waste your parents' money because it is one of the few hobbies you have that doesn't require you to be alone and it worries your family who despite living in the same house you have pretty much cut yourself from despite loving them dearly because of not knowing whether to loathe yourself or them for making you feel so bad that you mostly like things done alone yet feel alone at times as you fail to hold up the negligible pressure on you because you were grown up so safely and comfortably that you now lack dedication and concentration and as your self-hatred for what you do and fail to do and your arrogance for what you aim to do snowball to the point where you subconsciously say "fuck it" and do what you want for a full school term, leading to an even deeper addiction of anything virtual as your social capability crumbles and your academic status becomes below average and utterly insignificant, making you change your gaze from the skies you had aimed for to the chasm of disappointment and mediocrity that you are about to fall into to eternally lie in shambles in and you waste away any chance of improving yourself in the whole summer and then look out the window to realize you will merely miss this for the next nine months which you will spend in a pathetically dormant state of "I'll do it later" as your friends degrade into mere acquaintances as you embrace it all as the consequence of you not trying at all

    TFW this hits you hard ... dem feelz ;-;

    Fuwanovel Confessions

    in The Coliseum of Chatter

    Posted

    Says the guy who knows how his friends broke their hymen

    Persuade yourself that you won't ever fall in love and that you don't deserve a girlfriend who you wouldn't be able to give her the happiness she deserves anyway. It works wonders.

    Why don't you persuade yourself that you are so good that having a girlfriend is such a trivial thing that is needed in your fruitful and productive life? Works wonders.

    I probably said this before but I am not ready for a relationship and probably won't be ready until about 9 years from now if everything went according to plan. Hopefully it will. I do have sucky alternative plans but they are so sucky I don't want them.

    In the meantime, my grades this year or any year in the future could destroy my hopes and plans.

    And I just wanna point out that I know that a girl broke her hymen because of horseriding for no reason at all.

    Away for some time

    in Members' Lounge

    Posted

    Best of luck in your friendly competition. I did have a similar thing , the difference is this girl only dedicated her life for her studies, she did crush me during 6th year which was my worst year but I regained dominance like a b00s. Hopefully you will be able to come on top. And tbh being the firdt has so much coolness and prestige and popularity that I myself don't wanna lose it and the feeling of being victorious in anything from a video game to real life is always cool and I never get tired of it.

    Without ranting more, I really do hope you stay being the top student of your class!

    Fuwanovel Confessions

    in The Coliseum of Chatter

    Posted

    Actual love > Sex  :vinty:

    Why not both? And if you felt that much need for sex, you can go for " friends with benefit " relationship with someone, or keep in mind a prostitute always exists :sachi: .

    As for actual love, it doesn't come because you persuade it sadly. It just either comes or not with no need to do anything. Realizing that you love someone and taking that love to the next level needs you to do stuffz thou.

    AND HELL IT MIGHT BE UNREQUEITED LOVE IN THE END.

    Tfw Thread

    in The Coliseum of Chatter

    Posted

    tfw your sister comes into your room and falls asleep on your bed and it's 3:45 in the morning and you are sleepy but you have to go to the living room for that

    tfw I am not considerate and would just walk her up so that I can sleep on my bed.

    Fuwanovel Confessions

    in The Coliseum of Chatter

    Posted

    So college started.

     

    Confession: My first thoughts are FUUUUUCKKK ENGL2098 - Intermediate Composition.  Why must your torture me with having to compose something creative professor?  Give me a topic instead, creative writing is where I fall shortest.

     

    Edit: It's even worse, I have to write about writing.  So I'm Meta-Writer, can someone please put me out of my misery?

    Kill me now.

    Write with passion about how much you love your writing? Or smth like that.

    Confession: I might end up cutting my contract early after 8 months of teaching and finish living in Japan this month. I feel a little down about all of it because the last thing I want to do is let down anyone in my family or let down any of my friends. The honest truth is that I really just want to further my education in teaching and start taking Japanese classes because I don't feel I am getting a lot out of the language aspect while I am here; my job hours are so demanding that I barely have time to learn, let alone be a part of the Fuwanovel community which I love doing.

     

    It's difficult because I want to make not only myself happy, but everyone else as well. Do I want to come back to Japan? Yes, of course! I just feel I am too young to be sitting in this type of career the rest of my life at the age of 25. My dad didn't start becoming an air traffic controller until he was 29 years old, and he ended up working for 27 years before finally retiring last June. Am I too old that I need to find a career now?

     

    I want to continue teaching English, and I want to continue living in this amazing country, but I also want to further my education so I have the option of teaching university students. I want to learn to use Japanese in my everyday life as well, because I want to expose myself to more of the culture. Yes, I only have 5 more months of teaching (technically 4 because Christmas is a huge holiday), but I feel I am ready to continue teaching in a different environment.

     

    I don't know how I feel about all of it. It's hard for me to decide what I want to do. I also want to be close to my family because of all the changes going on in their lives as well: my sister had her baby in July and it still hasn't hit me I'm an uncle of a niece, my father retired and I can't be there to see him, and my grandmother (my last grandparent) on my dad's side is slowly starting to lose her health. I'm conflicted.

    Well do you have to pay money to your employer if you cut your contract early? If you can affprd that easily, then we shouldn't worry about that. After that do you feel ok if you leave Japan for now? You might not come back anytime soon, who knows! The alternatives you prepared and the family are kinda enough reasons for me to leave unless I am earning crazy good in this job and am enjoying it which doesn't seem to be your case at all. I kinda don't like cutting my contracts early so if you can continue till the end of the contract, it would be kinda great. I just hear horrible stories about the people who cut their contracts early. Then again I don't.know your employer soooko.

    TL;DR: if you won't be affected badly by cutting your contract early, I'd say you should.

    Fuwanovel Confessions

    in The Coliseum of Chatter

    Posted

     

    Confession: I went to a friend's birthday today, the three guys there are all 1-3 years younger than me and all of them have long-term girlfriends  :vinty: (two of them were there as well)

    We also played truth or dare, the few times it was my turn I picked truth and lied through my teeth because they asked things like "How old were you when you lost your virginity?" and "How many girlfriends have you had?". >.>

     

    I have had many of these, people expect interesting answers from me. But I give them the astonishing #no

    I don't know why many of my friends (at least the male ones) find it weird that someone who had the ability to get a girlfriend didn't just because the women in his reach "didn't suit his taste" , is it that weird? O.o

    Also I find it really weird that highschoolers care about that shit more than they care about their college and future plans..... Put your priorities right, gdi.

     

    In the meantime, I am actually glad Hanako is enjoying his trip this much ^-^ , and tbh I don't envy him. I don't want a sleeping life-long sickness in compensation for getting a gf. Actually I don't want to be ill at all in order to get a gf no matter what the physical illness is. 

    Hearthstone

    in Gaming Talk

    Posted

    I've played competitive MTG for a while. The price of Hearthstone didn't really compare to that. It was mostly 200 (super budget) to 500 (pretty reasonable) dollars if you wanted 1 tournament-worthy deck, and you'll repeat the process of getting one every year, given how the format rotation goes- there were several decks above that price tag, too. I remember the best deck being about 600~800 dollars. Spending about 300 bucks every two years + playing normally to get access to most cards just seems pretty reasonable.

     

    I feel like they don't have to offer discounts at all. Not until we get a few more years on the game. Well, bundles with 30% off seems pretty reasonable, but reducing the cost of adventure wings to 200 gold is crazy.

    Maybe make the adeventures 500 gold a wing instead of 700

    And it's just usually annoying because the reason I played hearthstone was because it was fairly new so maybe I stood a chance there but when I went, everyone still had most of the essential cards from the adventures and ofc they all have the good legendaries like dr boom and their counters like bgh. Maybe it's too late after all to play hearthstone now :P

    Hearthstone

    in Gaming Talk

    Posted

    If they're any clever they'll reduce the costs of the adventures soon - I wouldn't mind if they lowered the price per quarter to 200g or something.

    Indeed ;-;

    The agony of saving for a whole week while playing for like 2-4 hours daily just to do one wing and possibly an arena too ;-;

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