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    I would awake. Fruitless nightmares :makina:.

     

    As the one of two peoples that chose 'none', I think that is fair explain why.

     

    The basic premise is: I couldn't choose another option.

     

    Expanding my line of think:

    -Why not myself?

    Because I would not endure this.

    If I think of this imaginary family, they are peoples that I most cared for, peoples that probably changed my way of living, peoples that are too good to even be with me.

    I undervalue myself, and without these peoples, my heart and mind would be broken apart, being haunted forever with "It's your fault that they died.", "You choose yourself, and lost your reason to life.", "And now that your happiness ended again, do you think that fond memories will worth your painful life for now on?", "I'm not worth enough, I should have died that day, not having to choose anyone".

    And then, I would probably suicide, turning the entire effort useless. Or I would live a life without reason, being basically dead, something that no one that loved me would want.

     

     

    -Why not my wife? Or your child?

    Because in both cases, someone would be burdened.

    I'm a burden, a empty husk, a loner; I'm very aware of this. Even so, someone chose to be with me; I can only imagine a yandere-type girl as a valid answer. Saving only her bugs me with several reasons "With her personality, wouldn't she simply go after us?", "Or, if she doesn't, I have gifted her with a life without her possessions; could I call this fair?", "Even if somehow she overcome my death, overcoming our child's death must be impossible".

     

    As to our child, this traumatic event would surely leave sequelae. His life will be harsh; without parents to care, follow, share, teach... Living with guilty, because Otou-san and Oka-san died protecting him. I don't doubt that he will survive, but at what cost? Being forever shackled in your past, could he really find happiness with my decision?.

     

     

     

    In summary: I couldn't choose another option, because I could not afford leaving someone to suffer the lost ones.

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