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    havoc reacted to SilverLi in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
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    havoc reacted to SCG_1037 in Post pics you like (Powered by Jun Inoue™)   
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    havoc got a reaction from SilverLi in I am back, and got my bachelor   
    Well nobody probably noticed, but I have not been posting for pretty much the entire year.
    I did lurk around the site though.
    As for why, well it has been a pretty hectic year.
    In the last quarter of my third study year my mother got diagnosed with breast cancer and that really took up most of my time last summer, together with assuring I did not flunk anything.
    Well afterwards during summer vacation I was basically in charge of the household, as my mother just had her surgery and was starting on chemotherapy.
    She did not react well to it and got herself a urine way infection and spend the next two weeks in the hospital.
    After the summer vacation I was busy again with school this time for my final year and having to deal with my minor, as well as a lot of stress at home.

    After the second term I had to start on my internship and on my bachelors thesis, which basically comes down to a full work week.
    My mother was still recovering at that point and I did not get along with my supervisor, which did not help with all the stress.
     
    Somehow or another I still managed to succeed and get my bachelor, still haven't quite figured out how I managed to do it.
    So yeah I managed to get my bacherlor in chemistry.
     
     
    Only thing left now is to decide what to do afterwards.
    Still have not quite figured out what to do next.
     
    I am torn between finding a job and going for a master in chemistry.
    I just cant seem to make my mind up about it, working sounds like a good decision but I wont be earning as much as I would with a masters degree.
    On the other hand if I go for my masters degree, I will have to start living on my own (no problem there), but I will also have to pay for that all.
    Which will mean I have to start borrowing, and that will probably amount to 30.000- 40.000 euro which to me is quite the sum.
    I just cant seem to figure out what the right decision is.
    (Note it was not my parents paying for everything, were I come from you get studiefincanciering for 4 years or the length of your study which covers most of the costs minus any material needs.)
     
    I just needed to get that off my chest for a bit.
    That and brag a little bit .
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    havoc reacted to sanahtlig in Fortune Arterial Translation project   
    VN translation projects are a tremendous amount of work.  Take every break you can get.  I suggest using the old translation as a base, finishing the untranslated parts, THEN deciding if you still want to re-translate the older parts after that.  That strategy will increase the odds that the project will meet its most important goal: producing a full translation of the game.
    You've been gifted with the opportunity to do a fraction of the work and still achieve a useful goal.  Most projects never get that opportunity.
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    havoc reacted to degika in I am back, and got my bachelor   
    Welcome back! I would go for a job and then work on a masters on the side. Maybe one or two classes on the weekend. 
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    havoc got a reaction from Deep Blue in I am back, and got my bachelor   
    Well nobody probably noticed, but I have not been posting for pretty much the entire year.
    I did lurk around the site though.
    As for why, well it has been a pretty hectic year.
    In the last quarter of my third study year my mother got diagnosed with breast cancer and that really took up most of my time last summer, together with assuring I did not flunk anything.
    Well afterwards during summer vacation I was basically in charge of the household, as my mother just had her surgery and was starting on chemotherapy.
    She did not react well to it and got herself a urine way infection and spend the next two weeks in the hospital.
    After the summer vacation I was busy again with school this time for my final year and having to deal with my minor, as well as a lot of stress at home.

    After the second term I had to start on my internship and on my bachelors thesis, which basically comes down to a full work week.
    My mother was still recovering at that point and I did not get along with my supervisor, which did not help with all the stress.
     
    Somehow or another I still managed to succeed and get my bachelor, still haven't quite figured out how I managed to do it.
    So yeah I managed to get my bacherlor in chemistry.
     
     
    Only thing left now is to decide what to do afterwards.
    Still have not quite figured out what to do next.
     
    I am torn between finding a job and going for a master in chemistry.
    I just cant seem to make my mind up about it, working sounds like a good decision but I wont be earning as much as I would with a masters degree.
    On the other hand if I go for my masters degree, I will have to start living on my own (no problem there), but I will also have to pay for that all.
    Which will mean I have to start borrowing, and that will probably amount to 30.000- 40.000 euro which to me is quite the sum.
    I just cant seem to figure out what the right decision is.
    (Note it was not my parents paying for everything, were I come from you get studiefincanciering for 4 years or the length of your study which covers most of the costs minus any material needs.)
     
    I just needed to get that off my chest for a bit.
    That and brag a little bit .
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    havoc reacted to Kenshin_sama in Fuwanovel Confessions   
    Confession: I'm pretty damn happy with the Windows 10 anniversary update. For the first time ever, I can now fulfill my dream of writing short stories with file names.
    http://www.howtogeek.com/266621/how-to-make-windows-10-accept-file-paths-over-260-characters/
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    havoc got a reaction from N7Reny in Looking for next vn   
    Here are some recommendations from me,
    fate/stay night
    Tsukihime
    Utawarerumono
    Grisaia
    Muv-Luv series, First game is not great, second game is acceptable and third game is great. (link is to the third game)
     
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    havoc reacted to Funyarinpa in Looking for next vn   
    DID YOU JUST RECOMMEND EUPHORIA TO A BEGINNER 
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    havoc got a reaction from Kenshin_sama in Fuwanovel Confessions   
    mind if i ask what you are going to study?
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    havoc reacted to Funyarinpa in So apparently I finally reached 3000 (counted) posts. EST IST MEMEZEIT JETZT   
    Enjoy it, buddy. That whole route is god tier.
     
    Thanks. Just you fucking wait.
    my new favorite sig
    Just shitpost from the heart, and it will come naturally, prentice. 
    And thanks!
    Danke Schön Herr Naseblöt
    thanks. didn't mean to sadden ya hymen, it's just that I had no other way of coining that feeling of FSG
    Manhood is patience. Mastery is nine times patience.
    -Ursula K. Le Guin, A Wizard Of Earthsea
    Just let the spring of memes burst forth from your soul!
    my utmost gratitude. Found my excuse to stay up until 4am tonight.
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    havoc reacted to Funyarinpa in I am back, and got my bachelor   
    It's beautiful to see you back again. Congratulations for succeeding on getting a bachelor despite all that difficulty... Sad to hear that about your mother. Hope she recovers quickly. Welcome back, havoc. We missed you.
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    havoc got a reaction from Funyarinpa in I am back, and got my bachelor   
    Well nobody probably noticed, but I have not been posting for pretty much the entire year.
    I did lurk around the site though.
    As for why, well it has been a pretty hectic year.
    In the last quarter of my third study year my mother got diagnosed with breast cancer and that really took up most of my time last summer, together with assuring I did not flunk anything.
    Well afterwards during summer vacation I was basically in charge of the household, as my mother just had her surgery and was starting on chemotherapy.
    She did not react well to it and got herself a urine way infection and spend the next two weeks in the hospital.
    After the summer vacation I was busy again with school this time for my final year and having to deal with my minor, as well as a lot of stress at home.

    After the second term I had to start on my internship and on my bachelors thesis, which basically comes down to a full work week.
    My mother was still recovering at that point and I did not get along with my supervisor, which did not help with all the stress.
     
    Somehow or another I still managed to succeed and get my bachelor, still haven't quite figured out how I managed to do it.
    So yeah I managed to get my bacherlor in chemistry.
     
     
    Only thing left now is to decide what to do afterwards.
    Still have not quite figured out what to do next.
     
    I am torn between finding a job and going for a master in chemistry.
    I just cant seem to make my mind up about it, working sounds like a good decision but I wont be earning as much as I would with a masters degree.
    On the other hand if I go for my masters degree, I will have to start living on my own (no problem there), but I will also have to pay for that all.
    Which will mean I have to start borrowing, and that will probably amount to 30.000- 40.000 euro which to me is quite the sum.
    I just cant seem to figure out what the right decision is.
    (Note it was not my parents paying for everything, were I come from you get studiefincanciering for 4 years or the length of your study which covers most of the costs minus any material needs.)
     
    I just needed to get that off my chest for a bit.
    That and brag a little bit .
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    havoc got a reaction from Kenshin_sama in Re:zero discussion (and some other non important Summer 2016 anime)   
    Not even going to argue with this :).
    My education probably also has a lot to do with it, you get learned to think in a certain way. (Well drilled in is a better way to describe it)
    When you don't understand something its not scary, its interesting.
    Look at things from a outsiders perspective, after all a outsider also has to understand your thesis. (to a certain degree anyway)
    And there is no such things as a problem, only a challenge and a solution.
    You learn to think twice before you do something, so that shit does not hit the fan. (Warning, does not always works as advertised, results may vary)
    You learn to remain calm when shit does hit the fan, and trust me it does. (Good example was a class mate you tipped over a 1 litre beaker with used chromic acid, i worked in the same fume hood and was luckily already done with my experiment) (clean up was not funny)
    You learn to slow down when you notice you start working to fast due to haste in order to prevent mistakes, better to be slightly late than way to late because you had to start over from scratch)
    And above all you learn that it is better to be lazy than hard working, as a lazy scientist is a good scientist. (still need to work hard when necessary)

    And i have worked with things take scare the shit out of me, PAK's, chromic acid, and a boat load of hydrofluoric acid.
    And i have been genuinly scared of working with HF, and carrying 25 litre jerry cans around always made me feel uneasy as did pumping it over into a 5 litre one.
    But it has to be done and so long as you think before you act things are not likely to go wrong.

    So my education probably has a lot to do with how i see things these days, and why character like Subaru piss me off so much.
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    havoc reacted to Kenshin_sama in Re:zero discussion (and some other non important Summer 2016 anime)   
    Man, you sound just like my squad leader.
    From personal experience, I'd like to say that I could never do what you just mentioned until I started getting mental health therapy. It's not easy dealing with anxiety issues, especially when if it escalates to PTSD. I started having that problem after joining the military, and let me tell you, Subaru is handling his issues way better than I did, lol. It's seriously hard to think about your actions when you're under so much pressure, especially when you're not taught how to think during your school years (which I can reasonably assume is his case as well). I'm much better off than I use to be, but only because I've been able to alienate myself from everything that was stressing me out with the help of other people. Subaru is very lucky to have Rem too; I didn't have anyone helping me with my anxiety at all (my squad hated me) while I was enlisted, and it was only after I was discharged for poor mental health that I started getting support from my family and psychologists. Sometimes that's what it takes to pull yourself together and start thinking about your actions more carefully.
    Here, check this out: How anxiety scrambles your brain and makes it hard to learn
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    havoc got a reaction from Shikan Raider in Greetings everyone   
    welcome and i hope you will have a good time.

    Be sure to play tsukihime despite its age.
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    havoc reacted to Clephas in Coup (attempt?) in Turkey   
    More likely, he is going to join forces with Assad and form a dictators' confederation, lol
    Incidentally, nice avatar... I really wish they'd make more Crest/Banner anime...
    Edit: Now he's blaming it all on a cleric in exile... oh well, at least he has creativity on his side.
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    havoc got a reaction from Suzu Fanatic in Muv Luv: A Pretty Sweet Visual Novel Series Kickstarter [MILLION DOLLAR BABY]   
    Beats me, stupid seems more British to me and idiot more American.
    Then again i live in a 6 meter deep hole below sea level, so what the hell do i know

    What bothers me is that people are freaking out because some changed idiot into stupid.
    Why would that matter, it means the same bloody thing and has no substantial impact on the translation whatsoever.
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    havoc got a reaction from Fred the Barber in Muv Luv: A Pretty Sweet Visual Novel Series Kickstarter [MILLION DOLLAR BABY]   
    Beats me, stupid seems more British to me and idiot more American.
    Then again i live in a 6 meter deep hole below sea level, so what the hell do i know

    What bothers me is that people are freaking out because some changed idiot into stupid.
    Why would that matter, it means the same bloody thing and has no substantial impact on the translation whatsoever.
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    havoc got a reaction from Anonalypse in Hello everyone!   
    welcome
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    havoc reacted to Mr Poltroon in Do you play visual novels with or without voice acting?   
    Voices are mostly optional. I can enjoy a really good cast, and there are voices which are just briliant -- see Steins;Gate's Okabe Rintarou -- but I don't think voices are all that important, and can do perfectly well without them -- see Higurashi and most Original VN's.
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    havoc reacted to Mr Poltroon in Fuwanovel Confessions   
    Time to vent a bit. If you are uncomfortable with the themes of death, old age and I guess to some extent, Alzheimer's, read on, I'm sure you'll love this. 
    My grandmother is at death's door. There's only so much pumping her full of medicine every day can do. This is the first time that I've had to deal with a family member getting too old, and the whole situation makes me rather sad. I remember she used to come by hour house every month and do the ironing. After a few years, though, she had an attack and hurt her leg. She became unable to walk without crutches and as a consequence became a bit depressed. She started wanting to do things like leaving the house to get a coffee or something, which was nice and healthy. But then life decided to add salt to the wound: the house she and my grandfather lived in was too old, so it had to be rebuilt. She went to live with some family which I guess was probably the healthiest she's been since then. When they finished rebuilding my grandparents' house, due to some mistake the house ended up with huge steps before the doorway, as opposed to the small ones they used to have. Since it was very hard for my grandmother to traverse them, she was now stuck in the house and got even more depressed. Of course, she insisted on living there with her husband anyway. One day, she might have fallen at home or something without telling anyone, and my grandfather didn't notice anything. So she wounded her back and it kep getting worse and worse and the pain was such that she had to go to the hospital. The wound was terrible and she had others, too. If nobody keeps watch on her, nobody will know if she hurts herself because she won't tell anyone. She kept complaining for being at the hospital, of course, but she finally went back home three days ago. A family member went by to visit and what did they find out? She was completely off her medication and had peed herself. She can't take care of herself anymore. She can't do much anymore. And my grandfather, who's even older than her, can't take care of her anymore. She's currently sick at the hospital and I'm not expecting her to come back.
    The idea one is too sick to do anything and even live, hurts. Another family member who's in her 90's is still relatively healthy, able to cook, walk, use the bathroom, etc. She lives by herself although near family. Her memory's terrible though. She once was telling me a story and answering my questions and at some point she just looped back to the start.
     
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    havoc reacted to sanahtlig in Dual savior and muv luv series on windows 10   
    I've covered these games in my compatibility list.
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