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    SilverLi reacted to URV in Our New first Visual Novel   
    For anyone still interested in reading about this properly, even despite the OP's lack of effort to make it presentable, here's a more readable version:
    By the way, the guy also failed to provide any links to actually buying the game, haha.
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    SilverLi reacted to Decay in Dies irae OUT NOW for everyone!   
    That is the entire game.
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Okarin in Xbox 360 disk ring   
    You are screwed. You can't save it sadly. If it is new and you got a cd protection you could perhaps get a new one at the store. Otherwise buy a new copy of the game. Been there done that.
    I thought it was the famous red ring of death.
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Mr Poltroon in Rance 5D and Rance VI   
    I agree with both of you Rooke and Kaguya. But I must also say that this dungeon crawler is one hell of a crawler. It keeps me entertained even though I would say this kind of style of game is so outdated. SR is the superior game but that's also a gameplay I grew up with and are more familiar with. 
    But what VI is better at I think iare expanding and going in depth of the characters more than SR. That game is more about the conquest. Looking forward to more Rance titles from MG. They are doing good. Also looking forward to if MG and Alicesoft decides to bring other series over too.  
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    SilverLi got a reaction from BookwormOtaku in Da Capo III up for preorder   
    In case you guys were interested in this game. Da Capo III is finally out of testing and up for preorders at MG. A link to MG's blog and the gamepage with more specific information about the release.
    Release is the 20th of January with both an all ages version and adult version. $39.95 for all ages and $44.95 for the adult version.
    Edit: Worth mention too is that DC1, 2 and Kotori side stories are 50% off today. Source.
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Erogamer in Da Capo III up for preorder   
    In case you guys were interested in this game. Da Capo III is finally out of testing and up for preorders at MG. A link to MG's blog and the gamepage with more specific information about the release.
    Release is the 20th of January with both an all ages version and adult version. $39.95 for all ages and $44.95 for the adult version.
    Edit: Worth mention too is that DC1, 2 and Kotori side stories are 50% off today. Source.
  7. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from ShinRaikdou in Da Capo III up for preorder   
    In case you guys were interested in this game. Da Capo III is finally out of testing and up for preorders at MG. A link to MG's blog and the gamepage with more specific information about the release.
    Release is the 20th of January with both an all ages version and adult version. $39.95 for all ages and $44.95 for the adult version.
    Edit: Worth mention too is that DC1, 2 and Kotori side stories are 50% off today. Source.
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    SilverLi got a reaction from XReaper in Donald Trump Megathread   
    This and this is the only reason he won in my opinion. You are saying you want equality and free speech in media but the next second you are ridiculing every Trump supporter and throwing dirt right and left. It is so freaking sad to see celebs, TV stations and I don't know what doing anything to give Hillary support and bash Trump.
    The same happened in Sweden  2 years ago when we had our election. Media, celebs and everyone with just a small dose of influence was bashing one of the parties because their roots were racist and extreme. The solution isn't bashing and hating on someone. The solution is to bring the conversation public and pierce the political party and their key political issues. Bring it to the light and discuss it. You can't sweep something like immigration/housing/medical care/education under the carpet for example. You have to tackle it with your own solutions and pierce the bubble to break the other side. The Swedish democrats got almost 13% and destroyed the political stability we got for a long time. And it gets worse for every year.
    But no let's have a kindergarten level on the politics. That's doing great. 
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    SilverLi reacted to Darklord Rooke in Donald Trump Megathread   
    It’s seen as elitist snobbery. There’s growing resentment toward the intellectual left (or the liberal elite) because of how they treat people whenever there’s an election, or if the right win. One of the first things claimed is how everybody’s stupid. No, they’re not stupid, they just have different concerns and you dismissing those concerns will just cause deep resentment. It's just arrogance, and conceit. 
    I agree with you 100% here.
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Darklord Rooke in Donald Trump Megathread   
    This and this is the only reason he won in my opinion. You are saying you want equality and free speech in media but the next second you are ridiculing every Trump supporter and throwing dirt right and left. It is so freaking sad to see celebs, TV stations and I don't know what doing anything to give Hillary support and bash Trump.
    The same happened in Sweden  2 years ago when we had our election. Media, celebs and everyone with just a small dose of influence was bashing one of the parties because their roots were racist and extreme. The solution isn't bashing and hating on someone. The solution is to bring the conversation public and pierce the political party and their key political issues. Bring it to the light and discuss it. You can't sweep something like immigration/housing/medical care/education under the carpet for example. You have to tackle it with your own solutions and pierce the bubble to break the other side. The Swedish democrats got almost 13% and destroyed the political stability we got for a long time. And it gets worse for every year.
    But no let's have a kindergarten level on the politics. That's doing great. 
  11. Like
    SilverLi reacted to Darklord Rooke in Steam Halloween Sale '16   
    Can we please not turn this into yet another opportunity to scream 'Buy Fata Morgana' at people? At this point I’m never going to play the VN because the fans are annoying the bejeezus out of me.
    Some noteable games with discounts:
    Noticeable games: Total War: Rome 2 – 75% off
    Grand Theft Auto 5 – 40% off
    XCOM 2 – 45% off
    Euro Truck simulator 2 – 66% off
    Pillars of Eternity – 60% off
    The Banner Saga – 70% off
    The Banner Saga 2 – 25% off
    The Walking Dead: Michonne – 75% off
    Crusader Kings 2 – 75% off
    The Wolf Among Us – 75% off
    Europa Universalis 4 – 75% off
    Warhammer Dawn of War 2 master/grandmaster collection – 75% off
    Witcher 2 – 85% off
    The Witcher Enhanced – 85% off
    Sonicomi – 20% off
    Flowers – 15% off
    Fault Milestone One – 75% off
    Hatoful Boyfriend – 75% off
    TokyoBabel – 45% off
    Cinders – 66% off
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    SilverLi reacted to Kurisu-Chan in Fuwanovel Confessions   
    Well, with her character, she would beat a 2D char out the way, that also hurts more. 
     
    You know, i use the word "waifu" but nah, i never fell in love with a virtual character, if most, i'm very touched when my favourite female char finds happiness, with the protag or not, or if she's the protag, she finds happiness and all..
     
    I'm embarassing myself now. 
     
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Polycentric in What's your biggest regret?   
    Quitting on my soccer career after several operations. I should've fought harder than I did to come back.
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Limerence_ in What's your biggest regret?   
    Quitting on my soccer career after several operations. I should've fought harder than I did to come back.
  15. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from Flutterz in Fuwanovel Confessions   
    According to proper etiquette fork is supposed to be in left hand and knife in right when you eat. I can understand why left handed people change it but it is "wrong".
    I'm right handed but I still use some things with my left for example my phone.
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Mr Poltroon in Upcoming Video Games: News, Trailers and More   
    We lack some Mount & Blade 2 Bannerlord hype here. 
    Here is a siege defence gameplay from Gamescom last week.
     
  17. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from Darklord Rooke in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Limerence_ in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Bullying today is way worse today because of cyber bullying is always present sadly because of smartphones and 24/7 connection towards Internet. You are always available today which could mean you could always be a subject of downgrading bullying. But I also think the toxic behavior of the Internet overall is making everyone immune to some degree. I wouldn't call it good because toxic give birth to even worse behavior. I don't think bullying is decreasing sadly. It is more "floating" today and harder to define and discover. I never had any social life on Internet when I was young. So I just had to go through the day and then just shake it off. But today you can get bullied during daytime in School and then you try to handle the evening/night with the toxic Internet. Not a good combination. That's why we got so many suicides in low ages today. They are never free from the bullying until it is too late.
    Hard to talk about on the spot. But the morals of too many humans are so low today. You are not respected and many likes to make fun of you without even meaning something bad. For example a really bad CS:GO or Dota 2 game is equal to toxic flaming and hate if you have a bad game. That doesn't help anybody even though it is just 50 minutes of my life. 
    My only recommendation is that you are nice and at least listen to people. Be constructive and give feedback. If they don't take it well just ignore it. You never know who is behind the screen. A lot of younger persons affected by bullying will open up eventually. Even if you can't meet them you can always be that moral support they may need. At least make their evenings pleasant. That's why I always try to be nice. It is always nice to talk to people from other cultures too.
    Thank you all for your words!
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    SilverLi got a reaction from Deep Blue in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
  20. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from Barktooth in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
  21. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from HMN in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
  22. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from havoc in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
  23. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from Arcadeotic in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
  24. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from DharmaFreedom in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
  25. Like
    SilverLi got a reaction from Limerence_ in A story about myself and 1000 posts AMA   
    Alright. I promised this a month ago or so in Fuwa's confession thread and I never really got to it. Now that I have acquired 1000 posts I think it is time to do it. I have been a registered part of this community since May 2014. But I was a long time on and off lurker since 2013. The old Fuwa was a great place to find stuff you can't find anywhere else. It was easy to access and I never had any problems installing the old torrents with some minor guidance or the guides on every torrent page. I'm actually happy we are doing the same but legalized today. But never mind that.
    I know I was one of the fanboys about the Majikoi translation in late 2014 - early 2015. My first VN was Ever17. Got to love the suspense and with some external music it was epic. But what got me hooked at the medium was the famous flashgame Love Hina and a friend of mine recommended me to watch the animes Code Geass and FMA:Brotherhood. I loved the setting and gameplay Love Hina had. It was easy and not mindless clicking. Sadly a very few VNs got the gameplay element today. Sengoku Rance is a game I regard as my favorite because of the replayability and awesome "simple yet difficult" gameplay.
     
    Let's talk about me. Hopefully most of you older members at least recognize me by name. I'm not the most loud and memorable person, that's my own opinion. But before we begin with my story I don't want to feel any pity. There is nothing wrong with me and there isn't anything special about me. I just want to share my story.
    So what's special about me? Some of you may know it and others don't. I'm born with a double sided cleft lip and cleft palate (CLP Wiki but warning if you are sensitive). Around 1/1000 babies born got this at birth in Sweden. On average a total of 100 babies got this every year, different complex problems. Some may only have a single sided CLP for example. I got the worst kind where more or less everything between nose and mouth was a big hole at birth. Multiple operations after birth to stabilize. If you are interested in what it looks alike you can search for cleft lip and palate (just warning you if you are sensitive. Ain't gonna link something here. The wiki above is good.). I have in my whole life been that boy which had problems making friends except two core friends since I was 6.
    When I was young I had air going through my mouth and nose resulting in lisping. This was fixed when I was ~15 and with a lot of training with a speech specialist. I have done continuous operations throughout my years of different magnitudes. But some of my biggest one resulted in taking bones from my hip and transplant it to my palate, moving my whole upper jaw 1-2 cm forward and removing the hole through my mouth to the nose. This is just 3 of the total of 16 operations I have done in my life. The moving of my jaw was the most painful by far. I had some kind of device in my chin which you screwed two turns every morning and day for a month. It felt throughout my whole bone in my face and is most likely the most uncomfortable pain I have ever felt. You feel it inside of yourself and you twitches in your whole body.  I'm still not finished with my life and I am currently in progress to my next big operation sometime next year hopefully where I am going to move the lower jaw backwards.
    Problems I have had during all my years are missing teeth, discolored front teeth and braces on both inside and outside my teeth.I begun with bracers and orthodontic before I was 10. My upper lip are much smaller than my lower lip even though I have done plastic surgery about it. I have always had problems with dry lips.
    I have always had a rather low self esteem and was bullied for a while. An easy target because I am different. I was a bullhead and easily angered up to 6th grade (12 -13 y/o). I would storm out from anything and I was literary boiling for 10 minutes. It was a silly behavior but I changed to a calm, collected person later on. Most likely the opposite. Occasional anger burst happened up to the 9th grade and it would be directed towards the person who made it. Nothing dangerous except I was probably stamped as a racist when I called a teacher of mine a couple of things in 8th grade. I have a strong sense of right and wrong and this teacher was messing around joking during classes with persons I despite. He had problems with my speech (because he wasn't born in Sweden) which has always been a trigger for me. If you are lisping and not paying attention it is kind of a slurry speech. If you don't hear what I say the second or third time you were dead to me. Bullhead indeed when I was young... So when we had a written anonymous survey about him and the class I was more than nice. My homeroom teacher recognized my writing and hell broke out.
    I was so damn ignorant and classmates always had fun mocking me for it. Not that I cared except it was embarrassing, I knew they didn't have ill intent. I never had any interest in anything except soccer, gaming and my friends. So you can probably relate when you are absolutely clueless about for example the opposite gender at the age of 15. I knew the differences but I couldn't name what's what and when someone asked me in a tricky way I wouldn't answer because I didn't know. They were already in puberty and interested in that when I didn't care. Yes I am interested in girls today if you wonder. 
    At the age of 15 a lot of difficult operations begun as I mentioned above. I moved whole cheek, fixed the lisping and so on. It ruined my active life because I couldn't even jog for a whole year. When you are very active this was a torture. In the end I quit soccer a year or two later because I was missing so much and never got back in the form I once was in. I still regret this today but when your biggest perks was endless lung capacity and that special "soccer intelligence" nobody else had you have a huge mountain to climb when you lose your fitness. From running nonstop during 100 minutes to a wreck in 5 minutes. And this was when our team was elite testing us before we took the next step to the reserve team. This was devastating and I will probably never forgive me for giving up on that. But start over 1 year behind every other player (no pre season training etc.) 3 times in 2 years could probably break anyone.
    I still got my childhood friend today and during senior high school I begun to find some others I still am spending time with. I'm not really affected by anything today and indifferent towards unknown people. No need to get mad. I have some people I will despise for the rest of my life but I also got friends I still meet whenever we got spare time and an empty schedule. I'm working today and living in an apartment. I'm content and happy about my life.
     
    Let's celebrate this as my 1000th post and an AMA. Ask anything you want. If you are interested in more details feel free to ask.
    /SilverLi
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