littleblufish

Strangley enough when I used to have (I haven't had any recently ^.^) panic attacks I would have no memory of what caused it and the only reason I knew was because my parents were the ones who caused it. The psychiatrist said it was something along the lines of my brain selectivly forgeting stressful things as a coping mechanism (there is probably some fancy dancy word for it ). While not as severe as your situation I am missing most of the memories involving when I was 16-17. I can say personally that your example really is motivating me to try and get back on my feet and it gives me hope. So from the bottom of my heart, I thank you for sharing

I want to read... too bad I will either have to wait for a possible translation or personally learn japanese. Though I will say I pick up languages pretty fast so maybe learning another one might be the faster option

I personally suffer from depression as well as an anxiety disorder. Its started in 6th grade where I began to miss school because of an irrational fear of being ridiculed, I managed to make it thorugh middle school and my first year of high school without missing too many days. Once I reached sophmore year I began to miss more and more each day spent under the covers shaking and crying, it reached a point where my doctor and the teachers said it would be more money efficent and better for my mental health if I took a year off. Soon that year ended and a new one began and I was only able to make the first 2 weeks of school before all the questions the other students asked as well as the stress from being in a crowd caused me to shut down again. Eventually the mere thought of driving by the school made me hyperventilate and pass out. I was diagnosed with agoraphobia and put on a multitude of diffrent medications. There were many times where I stood with a knife pointed at my neck just thinking how easy it would be just to end it all. Even now I still sometimes get the urge to gouge out my heart because of the emotional pain. Now im sitting in a much better place mentaly, unfortunatly I am still stuck in a position where it is difficult to move forward. I think the only thing that saved me those many times where I could have taken my life was the emotional support that my family provided. Anyway that was my boring little story of my life, I figured I would share

I was sick in bed a while back so I marathoned the entire Monogatari series, that was fun

Huh..... I guess this is why my teachers always tried to call my bluff when I said I read it. 759 wpm 100% comprehension

I would totally jump in on this if I wasn't banned from the kitchen for accidentally almost burning the house down.... I look forward too all the noms that come out of this thread :3

I love you... it worked

http://tinypic.com/r/53lifr/5

http://tinypic.com/r/iciznn/5 (sorry for the junk quality, the message itself was quite small)

So now im back and it still isnt working, now instead of getting the message that gameexe.dat wont decompress when i click the SiglusEngine the cursor shows for a split second that it is working then nothing happens. It seems to not even open or show anything besides the cursor spinning up for a split second. Any clues? EDIT: I tried the gaijin hack and i got an error message in japanese, i have no clue what it means but ill try to post a pic

Yea its downloaded, let me give it a spin when i get back home, I will let you know how it goes since i have an appointment in a little bit that i need to get to. Thanks for the help so far, I hope to god it works

If it didn't work the first time I always try run as admin next

For what part? if you are talking about the registry files i checked and double checked that the name was untouched and the path went into the correct folder. In case you mean the other files i did apply settings.

The bat said something along the lines of not being able to change any files, this was before and after i removed the "read only" status. I had to manualy go in and correct the paths for the registry files. Also that link dosen't work for me :/ dat_dir & exe_dir are the only ones i touched

do you mean through uTorrent? Or some other means that i have overlooked?