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Anyway today we have the release for the awaited Bethly's patch, and as usual you can get it from their site here. No much to say other than Irru said that they'll try to not take as much time for Hinata's patch later, and have fun playing Bethly's route later if you've been interested with Bethly ever since Ginharu being released back at 2016.

Starting Under One Wing and Aokana. Go big for the sky or go home, I guess?

Unfortunately it wasn't. It's still in progress. This description is copied from previous Steam release (r44996), and it means just that it is different than StaircaseSubs fan-TL (r9721, which reportedly was pretty bad too. At least @Fred the Barber wrote in his review here on Fuwa, that even current official TL, with all its problems, is better - but still bad ). Newest Steam release (r65207) just adds Chinese TL.

Am a good 10 hours or so into Bethly's route, and according to Trip that's not even halfway through the HS portion of her route. Keeping in mind i'm a relatively quick reader this is kind of crazy, i'm assuming it'll take me a little under 30 hours at least to finish this route alone. And it's not even the longest in the game... I'm excited

Okay, I'm done with Maggot Baits. So was it worth it? It's hard to say, honestly. I actually thought the underlying story was pretty good once it kicked off, but all that gore and rape is quite offputting and there's so much of it. After having seen it all, I can safely say that there's really no need for it to be as extensive and graphic as it is. At least for me personally, it didn't add any value to the VN whatsoever. It felt like it was there purely for shock factor or for those people who are actually into stuff like that. A lot of the scenes were really long too, and it felt like a pain in the ass reading it all just because I didn't want to risk missing out on any story-related dialogue (which were in some of the scenes). If you're considering reading Maggot Baits and know you're easily disturbed, you should probably stay away. There's an option to decrease the level of the explicit content, but I don't know how much of a difference it actually makes. I'm pretty sure the dialogue won't be changed much (if at all) and that's plenty disturbing in and of itself.

Go here https://nekonyansoft.com/shop/product/22 for the update, it's free, works on all versions. While there are other sources to buy it from NekoNyan is the main company behind it, all patches come from them. Steam will auto download the lastest patch of course.

(This is difficult to write. Also, it's going to get personal, and if you need any trigger warnings, it's probably best to stay away, this might be disturbing for you.) IF YOU ARE NOT OF LEGAL AGE OR YOUNGER THAN 18 YEARS OLD, I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT READING THIS MIGHT DO TO YOU, I DON'T RECOMMEND IT. I found this website very shortly after I got into VNs, because I was looking for a way to play Ever17. That was 2014, and I was 14 then. It's been... five years. Fuwa meant a lot to me in that time, and I think it still does now. By making me an ardent fan of VNs this place sidetracked my entire academic career (love to read 'em and post on forums too much now ) and as such will always hold a place in my life and heart. I still have one of the highest post counts on here, and I've seen a whole ton of people come and go. I'm one of the old guard so to speak, and I'm proud of that, in a way. Fuwa has changed in big and small ways since I joined... I wasn't here for Aaeru, but I was here for Okami and Ren and more Fuwapocalypses I can count. But I'll be leaving. It's a hard decision, but I think I've long truly left the things that once connected me to this forum in the first place. I don't know if I can or will get my account deleted, or do anything of the sort... I don't know how I feel, ultimately, about having been a part of this place for 5 years. I'm trying not to stop writing, because my decision to leave has to do with one of the most disgusting personal issues I've ever had and it's easy to give up on writing this and close the tab, and move on with my day. It's hard to sort out what I want to say. Since I'll be leaving, I also want to give my gratitude to this website and particularly some of its people, but I'll try to leave that to the end, ö. First, I want to discuss why Fuwanovel, and the VN community as a whole, hurt me at large. I've not posted extensively on here for a long time. And I think it'll end up staying that way. One of the reasons I started to get less involved here was that I got the impression we had some Trump supporters here (just as a general sentiment). But seeing as I continue to participate on other websites which also condone such bigotry, I can't really say that that's the only reason I am leaving. It's the administration's prerogative to allow that. Another, more involved reason was actually due to something more general to the VN community (and actually even more generally, the anime/manga community). The extent to which we condone harmful pornography. Back then in 2014, when this was the main place I talked to people about my interests, this was also a slightly different place. We had a vigilante sort of doctrine, whereby we distributed torrents of fan translated visual novels to build a fanbase by simply getting people to pirate the games we loved. Many of you reading this (and probably the three of you that care) already know this, but anyways. I don't know how well it worked or how much it contributed in the end, but it hooked me. Another aspect of 2014 Fuwanovel, however, was more insidious... Loli shit. I remember particularly a fellow going by the name of Steve being absolutely bonkers about this shit. Posting loli stuff everywhere. But this is not a Steve callout post. We've all heard the rationalizations... "It's fictional", "It keeps actual pedos from offending", "I am a lolicon because they're cute", "Free speech means nothing I say, do or condone has any consequence", the list goes on. But at the end of the day we had (have) a lot of people who still thought and think it's a perfectly normal and safe thing to do to jack off to drawings of children. If you're here to debate this with me, just close the tab and save yourself the trouble. Now, especially if you're a newer member, you might be confused about this loli stuff, they don't seem very prevalent now. Well, that's because the hosting service that runs the servers for the entire forum forced Fuwanovel to get rid of any loli pornography out of legal concerns a few years ago. There was a lot of mod-related drama about it before, too. So what's the issue if it's banned on here now? Well... 3 things. 1. I've seen no self reflection or serious discussion of this, I don't think I've seen anyone seriously reflect on the extremity of pornography that is allowed to condone here. 2. The mentality that normalized being a "lolicon" (in normal person terms, pedophile) is still alive. 3. I've realized how much it hurt me. Acting like there's no repercussions to enjoying jerking off to ANY DEPICTION OF children, or rape, or coercion, or manipulation (and probably incest) all-too-common in visual novels is... reductive. It's dangerous. We might've enabled someone who saw the lolicon posts on this forum, and decided to make that a reality- and we'll never know. But whether that happened or not is irrelevant. At the end of the day, Fuwanovel is still a place where even if you can't talk about loli stuff, you can talk about Starless or any number of games that make a fetish out of depraved, fucked up, harmful, sexist shit, without examining what it does to you or other people. I know there's no question of whether it's harmful or not, because I've slowly come to realize that it directly hurt me and my mentality about sex and sexuality. Now, it might be because that I browsed this place while underage for years. Maybe my parents should've known better than to let me use the internet unsupervised. Maybe just warping the mentalities of children and teenagers is a worthy price to pay to freely discuss VNs. Maybe *I* should've known better, but known better than to stay in this place after I saw the word "lolicon" be used in casual conversation for the first time. But in direct part thanks to VNs and attitudes I saw on here, I became someone desensetized to and able to condone (and get off to) absolutely disgusting shit. During sex, the girl tells the guy not to do something but the guy ignores her and does that thing anyways? It's fine, she enjoys it. A scene where at least one character is a high schooler? Lol it's fine this is anime, and she's hot. Fucking someone who doesn't even know what an orgasm is because they're just that uninformed about their own body? Not manipulative at all! A scene where the girl's extremely embarrassed but the guy just doesn't care and straight up gets to fucking her anyway? Who gives a shit about communication and consent? Fuck a character that looks like a 10 year old, who fucking cares as long as you can find a group of people to reassure you that it's okay? Now, this isn't exclusive to Fuwanovel. The entire fucking anime, manga and VN community turns a blind eye to this shit. I'm fucking 19, I've regularly immersed myself in this content and this way of looking at media and pornography that the Fuwanovel community and the VN community fed to me on a near-daily basis for five years. That's 25% of my life. A long time. I'm only now realizing just how fucked up and directly hurtful to real people this is. Did you know so much as hearing about people who casually masturbate to drawings of children can send victims of child sexual abuse into panic attacks they take hours if not days to recover from? Did you know that when you masturbate to porn featuring coercion or worse for a long time you can become a person who can be aroused by someone else's sincere pain? Do you know how easy it is to develop misconceptions and unhealthy understandings about sex, sexuality, and consent when almost all porn condoned by the people you talk to on a peer basis every day makes a mockery of the concept of treating someone you're making love to as a person? I played Euphoria at 15 and I still get extremely disturbed and uncomfortable when I think about it. I'm not even necessarily a victim of any of this. Just months if not weeks ago I casually recommended pornography that does exactly this to people on here. I've played my deliberate, informed, willful part in normalizing getting off to ANY depiction of abuse whatsoever. I am complicit. I don't know if I talked about it on here before, but I've been struggling for years about knowing I am a person with some of these fucked up fantasies. I wouldn't even think of doing anything about it in real life, because I know it can fucking hurt people. But it took me five years to even understand why even learning about it can make some feel preyed upon or manipulated. It's just... not healthy. It's fucking creepy, it's gross. I literally hate myself for it, and deserve to do so, because it's a thing to be hated. Being able to derive pleasure from someone being subjected to pain, or being violated, or being manipulated or coerced... That's gross, creepy, unhealthy, and harmful. If you still want to get off to depraved shit, at least keep it to yourself and to spaces where people are willing to examine what indulging in such fetishes does to them and the people around them. It's not a normal thing to do. It's dangerous, in the truest sense of the word, and if you want to consume media that normalizes abuse, it's your full responsibility to ensure the safety of people you reveal that activity and spread such media to. I know, because I normalized it in my head, and I'm still working to understand how it can hurt other people, because I've thrown the part of me that can empathize with that and then told other people it's okay to do so as well. You might be able to deflect blame from yourself by saying it's my fault or my parents' fault that I hurt myself by engaging with proponents of extreme pornography in the VN community. That's on you. But I know I, too, am to blame for condoning these things that I didn't realize hurt me. It's not worth it. Getting off to fucked up shit is not worth telling someone coercion, rape, or any abuse could or should be enjoyable in any capacity. Even if you tell yourself that fiction, perhaps the clearest reflection of people's cultural, philosophical and personal beliefs, has no bearing whatsoever on real life. I want none of it anymore. I want to do better than that. Be better than that. And I think that means letting go of the me that used to be OK with abusive pornography. And that means letting go of Fuwanovel. And that's why I'm leaving.