(This is a pretty long rant, sorry about that. Please, try to read it all so you can understand exactly what is going on and where I am coming from.)
Hello everyone. Today I have some pretty bad news. I'm going to have to put a stop to the Tsui Yuri translation project, at least for the time being.
I think a lot of people probably knew this would happen. As for the reasons…
So, the past month I have been working on this translation project, that I myself started.
I guess I just really wanted to give something back to this extremely awesome community that I have grown to love over the time I have spent here.
The past few weeks I have had a lot of things on my mind surrounding the project and my own translation. It has gotten quite bad, to the point where I would be unable to sleep at night. I would just lie there, thinking to myself like an idiot.
There has been a lot of reasons for this. First of all, I am currently the most busy I have ever been in school. I have exams, midterms and all sorts of crap going on. In addition, I had a significant amount absence previously this year, which I am still trying to recover from.
On top of school being way too much, I've started to question whether or not I can actually do this. A lot of small factors have started to add up, and it finally dawned on me that I have simply put way too much work on my shoulders during a really, really busy time of my life.
My TLC gave me a little bit of a "scolding" yesterday, saying that I have a decent chuck of grammatical errors that just should not be there. This probably come from a number of factors, but I think my stress IRL has probably rubbed off a bit into my work.
Also, going back to the start of the project, I remember Arcadeotic and Kiriririri telling me not to start the project. It was basically a friendly way of saying I probably wasn't ready for it. I knew that they were right, but still went through with it.
And I kind of came to a conclusion when Decay once again explained why my project wasn't being added to the VNTS. This was such a tiny, tiny little detail that made me realize I just was not ready for this project. I quite simply don't have the time to invest into such a time consuming thing right now.
Like, I guess everyone already knew I wasn't ready for a full on translation project from the beginning, but I still wanted to start one.
I have been learning Japanese for quite some time now, and I have spent a lot of time here on fuwanovel, watching people make translation projects, reviews, blogs, whatever. People do stuff to make give back to the community, and I want to do something as well.
Translating is what I am going to do once I finish university. It's my dream job, believe it or not. I mean, whether it will be translating games or books or if I end up being an interpreter in a company somewhere, I don't know. All I know is that translating is what I seriously want to do, one way or another. It's been something I have wanted to try out for so long, and this experience, though short, has just helped strengthen that wish.
I mean, this past month has been unbelievably fun for me. I have learned so much about making a team, how the translation scene works, and I have also had the chance to actually translate something for real, to see a little what that is like. And it was so much fun!
But ... Yeah, I just ... Am not ready to truly start a project I guess.
I still have a while to go before I can truly start translating a full visual novel. I mean, my translation isn't wrong. And it isn't super bad. It's not that. It's just that, when I have to spend several minutes concentrating on every line, to make sure I don't miss small key parts of the sentence in order to make it a proper translation, it's obvious that I am not quite ready for a real project yet.
I would like to just apologize to the whole community. I truly had nothing but good intentions when starting this, and so many of you encouraged me along the way. A bunch of people showed an interest in helping out, (like, I really got a lot of applications... I never would have thought someone would actually be interested in working on this project with a scrub like me )
Guys, really, I'm so grateful for all the support and all the help, and I am so, so sorry for letting everyone down. Hopefully no one really had any massive hopes for this one. Hopefully people will just be like, "oh yeah, that new kid wanted to translate something and failed. Hah, saw that coming."
Anyways, I truly want to get into the fan translation scene again as soon as possible, and hope that this hasn't completely shattered my reputation forever. I just have to take a step back, re-think some stuff, finish all my exams and take a breather. Then, I'll come back and start translating yuri VNs again. (Because let's face it, yuri is love, yuri is life )
On that note, if anyone want to jump on the team as a translator, or to take over, feel free to PM me. At the moment we have closed down the project, however we can re-open it again easily enough, so if you are intersted, then don't hesitate to ask.
There is a chance I'll come back to this again myself later, maybe in a few months, but at least right now, it just isn't the right time for this.
Thank you for understanding, and let me just say one last time, I am sorry it came to this.